Why Is It Wrong, When It Feels So Good?
Fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. For the joy set before him he endured on the cross, despising the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:2
I jumped as his knuckles hit the table and split open. Blood began to pour out and drip from his hand as tears began to fall from his eyes. I sat there, frozen. Stunned at the words that had just come out of my own mouth: “I’m having an affair.” I was thinking: “this can’t be my life. I didn’t really do this did I?” Yes, yes I did. After the initial confession, it took me an entire day to be completely, totally 100% honest & transparent with Jeremy about everything. Once that happened……..I didn’t leave out a detail. Three nights laying awake talking about everything. Answering every question Jeremy had. I owned every bit of what I did. I made the choices. No one forced me, no one pressured me, no one manipulated me. I did it. I made the choice. As I spoke these words, he wept. He wept at the realization that I had chosen to betray him. His knuckles bled, his eyes wept, his heart broke. All because of a choice I made.
Choices. We make choices every single day. Choices not only affect you, they affect everyone around you. When we choose to walk away from the Lord and walk into sin, we choose a path of wreckage. It will destroy you. And until you choose to walk away from sin and back into the arms of our Great King, unrest, anxiety and insecurity will rule you. Through the schemes of the enemy, you may not realize the unrest, anxiety and insecurity that are ruling you at the time, however over time, it will expose itself. Within 2 weeks of the affair crossing major boundaries, I lost 15 pounds. I couldn’t eat. I convinced myself it was just from the newness of the affair, the ‘butterflies.’(disgusting, I know.) But that was a scheme, a lie straight from the pit of hell. What it was, was the unsettledness that had taken over my body. I physically could not put food in my mouth for 2 weeks without vomiting. People asked what was wrong, how and why I was losing weight so quick. Since I had struggled with anxiety in the past, I just claimed I was going through a spell of anxiety which caused me to lose my appetite. Oh I had anxiety alright! It was the Holy Spirit saying “what in the world are you doing?” “Why are you choosing to rebel and walk away from Me?” Over time when you walk further and further away from the Lord, it gets easier. It gets easier to not feel conviction, buy into temptation, justify your actions and harden your heart. It gets easier to convince yourself that this won’t hurt anyone and that things will be ok. One choice is all it takes. One choice to not guard your heart, one choice to not shut something down, one choice to cross a boundary. It all starts with one. Are you struggling with a choice? Sometimes we simply want to say, “this won’t hurt anything.” “It’s no big deal.” Yes it is. That one bad choice simply makes the next one easier. I chose temptation over our God.
I challenge you today to choose Him. Choose Him every day. Rest assured, whatever you choose that defies the Lord may feel good in the moment but nothing, absolutely nothing compares to Him. God is better. Better than anything. ANYTHING. When you choose sin over Him, you are saying whatever that ‘thing’ is, is better than Him. It’s not. It’s just not.
We must fix our eyes on Him. Remain so focused on Him that nothing absolutely nothing compares in our eyes. So full of His goodness that everything else leaves a bitter taste. Never compromise even the smallest of things for it only leads to bigger things. Choose Him friends. He loves us, He sent His only Son for us. Surrender to Him today. He. Is. Better.
Practice Because We Are Imperfect:
Pray for the Lord to give you a Truth-teller. A Truth – teller is an accountability partner who will speak truth in love, encourage you and steer you back to Jesus always.
Podcast Suggestion: The Next Right Thing by Emily P. Freeman
